Putting down rather than Giving up. THANKS TO YOU

 

If , today is your most painful day of all , tomorrow would certainly be better than today.Leave those depressing thoughts , go on , continue your journey , you shall find a better ways to relief your sadness and sorrow.

 

" If people do not yield to grief , excessive grief will soon end up on their own." - Shakespear , from the book of Hamlet.

When you feel pain , seek it as the lowest point in life , so long as to encourage yourself to continue surviving , and stand the pain , life would have been another round of the picture.

 

If you think happiness is short , then I assure you that the pain is equally short lived. Believe that sadness could be short as well.

 

What you have to do , is to put those sadness down rather than giving up the sadness you had.

 

There is once , a girl from a secondary school decided to commit suicide after failling her exams. She climbed up towards the top floor of 10 multi-floor platform, hovering on the platform edge , weeping. Some pedestrian found her Intention to kill herself , couldn't help but screamed in horror.

 

That girl's face looks rather pale.Sitting on the top floor, she dimly heard the sharp whistling sound from the police's cars.But she remained unconcerned about her surroundings , nothing could caught her attention anymore.

 

Several policemen then rushed out from the elevator. That girl looked back , and shouted " Do not come near me or else I'll jump ! "

 

One of the officers stopped the footsteps of his colleagues. Slowly bend his head down and went near the girl. The police then said it in a calm tone : " A few days ago I tried to be like you, sitting on the other buildings across the platform, decided to jump down as well. " He continued to talked while slowly moved along towards the wall and sat besides the girl, Imitating her posture.

 

" You may not believe , I thought of dying as well. " He said. " My wife couldn't stand my job which causes fear for her everyday. She ran away together with the kids and all of my properties. Last week , the Personnel Distribution Command Awarded down the promotions seats , and I was not included for the promotion. For over 10 years I had worked as a policeman , but still remain as a basic police officers.Life is so meaningless to me." he continued.   

 

He speak in a very frustrated tone , the girl then remain silence , quietly listened to his whining.

 

" That is the most tragic moment in my life , I really don't felt like living anymore. " By covering his own face with his both hands , he then burst down into tears.

 

The girl felt pity for him , tried to comfort him with all her will " Please don't cry , if you think right now is your most tragic moment , your future can't be worst than this." she said.

 

" How about you ? You must be feeling very sad , or else you wouldn't make the decision to commit suicide aren't you ? If you could get through this period , you future can't be worst than this. " The police officer tried to encouraged her once again.

 

At the end, the girl slowly moved down from the platform , walked away with the policeman.

 

This story , Inspired me alot.Especially with what I had been through these days.

 

"You need a greater courage to suffer than to accept death." - Napoleon

  

That's so true. You need a greater courage and determination to get out from being suffer.

It is not difficult to die.But once you dead , it will then result in the suffering of their loved ones forever. You build your own liberations into someone's pain.. do you think it is the right thing to do so ?

 

Some people would never understand how is it feel to be the one who suffer for other's happiness. They always kept this selfishness in their heart , as long as they are happy , they wouldn't bother about those who are suffering for their stupidity attitude.

 

Well I had met one , and thanks to him, I knew how silly and dumb I used to be.Thanks to him , for treating me as a nothing , I finally found my value back all by myself.Thanks to him,for his heartless and coldness, I never knew I had such a strong will to survive and continue my life as usual.Thanks to him , for giving me all those fake promises , I finally realized that promises without any actions can never be trusted. Thanks to him , I finally knew how valuable my friends and family are. Thanks to him , I finally learned not to fall in love that easily again.Thanks to him , for his childishness and egoistic characters, I finally understood the criteria of a mature guy should own , and what is the real meaning of a true love Is. Thanks to him , I woke up once again , knew that I should balance my life , and always stays alert.Knew that I should trained myself into a better person before I asked for something good , knew that I should be proud of myself because I am someone better than I thought. I found all my confidence back , and that is because I keep telling myself , that I am great , I can improve and be better , no one will ever break me down before me.And I will never felt guilty and regret , because I really did paid 100 percent feelings on you , being loyal to you , love you with all my heart , I even cried for you , happy for you , and care for you. But unfortunately , you choose not to appreciate and pay any afford on me , I can say nothing about this.I don't wanna force you to love me , nor making you feel annoy with me.I will choose to back off for the sake of your freedom and happiness.And this will be the last thing I did for you.

 

Once again , I forgive you.   

 

Without you , I can still survive. Although we both never end up In a good ways , but I will still remember the good things that happened between both of us , on how you first cherish and treasure me which makes me felt like a princess for real.Though I still do not know the reason why you lost feelings for me after a short period of cherishing me and why you always ran away and evade from me when problems occured between us.But I still choose to see the good side of you and remember all those happy moments we had.I appreciate that very well.

 

My life still needs to continue isn't it ? I will not say that my wound had been 100 percent healed. But I strongly believe that someday it will. ( Still, ha , is my first love,and it didn't gone smooth as I predicted , even worse than I thought )  And because I said so , I will sure execute this.

 

Each person's life are likely to have experience a low ebb through moments , but if you choose to end it right now , you will always remain and stay in the same low ebb. Continue your jouney , you will find a different outcome.   

 

Think about it , there are thousands and millions of people around the world facing alot more tragedies than you , they still live and survive though their life are like shits, do you , or do we even deserve to choose not to live ?

 

If today is your most tragic moments of all , tomorrow will sure be better than today. Only by putting down those depressing thoughts , walked through it and continue your journey , you will sure find the best way to relief the pain that lies unto you.

 

 

Japanese style Living room

My dream house. Simple and nice. Japanese living style ! :D I aim this , I aim this !!

Respect.

The matter of whether you like it or not , is a very subjective kind of feelings.

Everyone is different , everyone owns different thoughts.

It is difficult to define someone's likes or dislike.

One has the right to choose whether to like or dislike a thing. You can choose your own hobbies , that won't be a problem at all. No one can grab your rights to decide that.

But , we must not let them to affect others.

What you like , is your own business to decide. But by choosing what you like might causes distress to other people , still , is a fact.

Is like depriving other's right to choose what they like nor dislike.

Everyone's preferences are different.

Therefore , we should respect other's preferences as well in order to get the respect we need. 

Although we may not always own the respect we wanted. But at least , more than you thought.

Only by respecting each other needs , a better interaction will then exist between humans.

Can I stop missing you ?

海 , the sea.

海, きれい―
私も最近海へ行ったの. 夏が終わる感じ. こんなに遊んでいた ^ ^;

福岡と韓国は近いですね.
いつか韓国に遊びに来れば教えて.
英語は下手だが韓国語は上手 (笑)

EXAMS BO LIAO !!!!! YAY !!!! :D

Yay !!! Finish Exams d !!!!!!!! Yay !!! :D :D !!! Celebrate Celebrate !! LOL

Was having my account's exam's today.Sitting infront of Adrian , that Adrian hor , keep on kacau people with his leg , shaking shaking my chair , stupiak !

Then , this little sweet girl Yar Ding Ding , also ? Stupiak ! Early in the morning called me , cried pulak ~ Because of account , she doesn't know how to do the income statement. What to do ? Quickly rushed to school earlier than usual lor , to teach this sha gua. Like that also want to cry yeah ? Sha gua ;) heh heh

Haven't really met Action Karmen these days, wondering how is she ? Luckily she taught me accounts before , her account so superb sure DIM ah ! Geng dou Bao ! Nothing to worried. LOL

Ding Ding told me Fy Fy had cuted her hair into a cool punk style , walao yeah ~~ Want to see want to see ~~ ^^ She didn't wear any glasses neither ~~ ( like I told her to :P ) xD Super Leng lui lor ~~ eee ? Then she and Angelala one pair d lor ? xD

Einstein so happy today ~ Keep talking and talking and talking to me , I even molested him xD ! So cute !! xD LOL


Jun Yao also cute xD LOL , Asking me a tissues , then I hand him over a pack of tissue and said >> You take the whole pack lah ~ ^^

JUN YAO : " OH thank you ah ~ ( looking at the tissues pack ) Wah , this one called whole pack ah ? Only one piece of tissue left ~ xD

Me and Ding Ding laughed like what !? xD LOL

SO happy so happy so happy !! xD

Yep , I'm certainly gonna asked Soon Jie Jie and Yap Yap out these few days ^^

Hey anyone wanna K ? :D Called me !

 

New York Fashion Week and Food

Hey is NEW YORK FASHION WEEK AGAIN !!!!!!

This time Michelle Phan was one of the Make up Artist for New York Fashion week !! By heading to New York streets , she will be recommending three of the best food stores in New York ! Yummy ~~ LOL If I get the chance to travel around New York , I will pick the same stores as she did for dining xD

Now here it is , Enjoy Guys ! My favourite big apply city ! xD

Sing to the LORD

Righteous Ruler of the heavens
Holy, holy, our God
Sovereign Lord of all creation
Holy, holy, our God

Every tribe and tongue
Lift your voice as one
He is greatly to be praised

AND EVERYONE SING !

Sing to the Lord ! Oh my soul !
Let the heavens shout for joy
Great is our God
Great is our God

Nations come and bow before Him
Holy, holy, our God
Angels sing now and forever
Holy, holy, our God

Every tribe and tongue
Lift your voice as one
He is greatly to be praised

Sing to the Lord, oh my soul
Let the heavens shout for joy
Great is our God
Great is our God

The heavens shall declare
The glory of our great God

The heavens shall declare
The glory of our great God

The heavens shall declare
The glory of our great God

Jesus King, let us adore Him
Holy, holy, our God

Sing to the Lord, oh my soul
Let the heavens shout for joy
Great is our God
Great is our God

Great is our God
Great is our God

Honestly... I felt guilty.

 

Honestly....

Is very late right now , around 2 something.

I felt... so...

HAPPY RIGHT NOW !! XD Why so happy yeah !? Don't know why so happy ! xD lol !!

LOL what happen to me ? xD Sick I guess ! Yeah , actually I do caught some cold if you guys did notice that , kept sneazing like mad the whole day , during CS examination , that PD 011 hall yeah ~ So cold ~ what lah ~ Kept HAK CHEW ! HAK CHEW !

I just don't understand why I never remind myself to bring a long my jacket ? xD Still weared shorts , HA HA HAHAHAH !! ( I know you guys want to DUUU me liao :P )

Right now , just sense a little bit hot right on my forehead. Maybe that's the reason why am I so HOT !  right now xD Hope everything will get back normal tomorrow ~ cause I am kinna out of control right now xD LOL

Speaking about hot , that day , was a hot day as well , as usual taking KL central line back to Serdang , pass by a place where I saw a very old Indian guy ... sitting on a chair wheel... waiting for people to show some mercy by donating as much token as they can.

Well , I haven't do anything good lately so.. Yeah. I'll donate him some riggits.

I stood besides him , tried to search for my purse , then I hand out the money into his small cup.

He looked at me ... and lay out his hand towards me , said " come , come "

I ... felt kinda weird... erm... what is he trying to do ? But , I still lay out my right hand for him to hold.

He hold my hand... for all of the sudden , my Insecured kind of feelings told me that , hey ! Be careful with him man !! He is trying to molest you !! xD

But when I tend to pulled my hand away from him , he grabbed it tight ( Oh my god ! ) , DANGEROUS !! DANGEROUS !! LET GO OF ME !!

" thank you , thank you so much " and then... he let my right hand go.  

... ...

T.T I felt so ashamed of myself. How can I think such a thing to an old man with a physical challenged body ?

He only needs loves from people ( which I don't think he has it right now ... ) And he is showing his most respectful and honouring side towards me.

Although is just a simple Thank you. But it sounded so nice and touched. I can really feel .. the sincerity from him. That he thank me so much eventhough that's just a few normal papers over there.

If only... This world can be more simple. Not much betrays , not much realistic thoughts , more Love. I guess ... sometimes , too much self - defence could possibly ruined the world most Innocent thing of all.

The next day , I went to the same place where I met him.To give him more of what I have , which maybe enough for him to fill up his stomach for a day ? This time , try to be more friendly with him.

But ever since then .. I had never seen him again.

If only , that day , I can be more friendly and grab his hand saying .." You are welcome.I wishes you HAPPINESS. Everyday. "

arggggg !!!! BEN DAN ESTHER !!!  

May The Lord blesses him. For now , and forever more.

 

Three types of people , which type are you ?

WOOOOOOOOOOOO !!! Finish my Computer Studies exam today !!! Still One to go then I am FREEE !! YAY !! Muahahahah !! Muahahahah !!! ( calm down esther )

Ok , recently all busy with their exams and so on , I haven't really met a bunch of TB1 together again due to different examination's rooms. But nevermind , I hope to see all of them during the PD trip , lol muahaha ~~ Imagine the Summer feel ~~ Summer feel ~~~ TAIII ~~ YANNGGG ~~ (Einstein's theme)

Now , after having my computer studies exam , as usual , poking Einstein in front with Kai Jun , happy to see his nervous face while he is trying so hard to define his own words... LOL WHY SO SERIOUS !! SAHHH !?

I thought of something which came out from my mind , something which I created on my own. muahahah ~ let me share it with you guys , this is dedicated to those people who are dumb enough to live in this world. 

There are three types of people :

The first one , walking down the streets during a lovely morning , doesn't notice that there is a hole in front of him. So he fell down and trapped inside the hole.

~ Nevermind , you don't know mah ~ you can learn , is ok ~~

The second one , walking down the streets during a lovely morning , doesn't notice that there is a hole infront of him , but someone stop him and tell him that " wei ~ infront got hole ah , be careful while walking ." But this person , chooses not to believe his words , and still insists to walk towards the hole , fell down , then gets trapped.

~ This call what ? Call silly lor ~~ 

The third one , again walking down the streets during a lovely morning. This time , things go differently. He knows that there is a hole infront of him , but he still walks towards it , fell down then gets trapped.

~ This mah call SOH HAI LOH !! ~

Using the stories above as an examples in our life

Again , we have three different types of people in our life which are similiar with the stories told above.

The first ones , doesn't realized about the mistake they had.

Is ok , we can forgive that because they can't be blame for not knowing it. '

The second ones, still , doesn't realized about the mistake they had. But when people pointed out their very own mistakes , some even give them the advice they need. They still wouldn't realize their own mistake , or choose not to listen.

Mah xuan lor ~ Silly bunch of people lor ~~ Don't want to believe ? Up to you ~~

The third ones , they realized about their own mistakes ~~ Very Good ~~ but they choose not to care wor ? Not to do anything about it wor ? Just leave it like that and let their mistake burn themselves until their life becomes miserable , until they hurt others until everything is a mess up wor !!!!!!

BUT !!  They still wouldn't do anything about it.

This mah call SOH HAI LOR !!!!! Blame who ? Blame themselves lor !!

Usually , the third situation occurs when that person owns an egoistic characters , self-center and heartless. They are smart , sure they are , they knew their own mistake , they knew they did wrong but they choose not to care ~ Until everyone hates them , smart becomes what ? DUMB LOR !! You ruined yourself babe

You thought everyone so DAK HAN wasting their own time to hate you ? To dislike you ? To point out your mistake ? No lor ~ If people cares about you then only they choose to point out your mistake lor , but if peope don't cares about you ? You die also nobody cares ok ?

HAIZ ! For the third ones , I am speechless towards you guys

But still there are some very clever and nice bunch of people de ~ ;) Like Yang Yang ~ Trying so hard to change his own mistake ~ Until everyone knows that he is that sincere ~ He did tried to change somehow ~ We accepted him already not because he changed , is because we have seen his afford ~ YANG YANG ~ muaks muaks ~ ;)

Unlike some people , cheh , don't know what kind of person is that lor ~ Haiz , whatever to them.

"EEuuu ~~ Esther so mean ~~ "

Yes , I am mean , so what ? Still , I am telling you the truth. Because people like you guys not only making your own life miserable but you are making others life miserable as well.You don't even deserve to be treated nicely. Why ? You guys appreciate meh ? You guys know the word nice meh ? No right ? Then no lor ~ You guys are just fucking taking advantages on people who fucking can tolerate your negative sides ! FUCK YOU !!  

Tomorrow Saturday ~ YAY SATURDAY ~~ I am going to ask my favourite Yap Yap and Soon Soon jie out le ~ mUaks ! Miss you guys ~~ 

绝望

绝望！

彻底的绝望了！！

人类自私的心！！

厌倦了不被尊重的感觉！！

厌倦了被利用的感觉 ！！

厌倦了所有！！

就连自己最信任的人。。。也背叛了我。

我到底做错了什么？有谁可以告诉我？

真诚的对待人，也是我的错？

为什麽每次都是这样子！！？？？为什麽！！！？？？

。。无论如何！！ 我都一定要好好的活下去！！！！不会再为了自私的人类委屈自己！！！

Tony Jaa 教泰文(森美、吳君如主持)，笑到你lai屎。

oH MY GOD !!! THIS MAKES ME LAUGHED LIKE MAD !! XD

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Back to "ZERO"

One teacher has taken over an extreamly bad and lousy classes together with a bunch of rebellious students , which no teachers even dare to volunteer themselves on teaching them.

This class reputations are known for poor students and also frequent pranked accidents by those naughty students.

The first thing that teacher did , after taking over the class , was to destroy every single bad records from each of every students. No matter it is a lousy report cards or any other past files , transcripts. He destroyed them infront of all the students in the class , to let those which recorded the student's past destructs immediately.

He told the students :

" I do not know anything about every each of your past.So you are all equals to me.Right now , for this moment , you are all new , blank and white.To be an outstanding students , or a low level students , it all lies in your own.So cherish and take a very good care for your own Image. "

A year later , this class which used to be known as Incurable , appear to be one of the highest academic level of achievers , and has been selected for the academic year as a Fine-Level Class.

[ The Past ] had put a label onto us.

We could hardly forget about what kind of a person are we used to be , hardly forget about what we had done. Of course , we couldn't even change ourself , and transform into a whole new person.

If you choose to kept looking back the road ahead , how can you walk well for the road afront then ?

A famous writer , Thomas Hobbes , used to said :

"Happiness is an ongoing process of desire, from one target to another , by achieving the former, it opens the way to the latter path."

Indeed , if you can understand that life is to practice the process of desires , Success and Failure are not the main momentary in life.Then you will be able to cherish every moments that appear , without suffering from the past which can no longer to be change.

No matter how the past appears to be , you should always remember to live better , cast a positive thinking for your life , inspired new energy , and start it all over again.

Only by laying down the past , you will then be able to restart your journey.

Put your thoughts and mind into [ Zero ]

Back to Original , and re-think about your own life.

Only with an Empty heart , Empty Body , Empty Past , it will then be possible for you to get the most out of the harvest.

Society aside , and live in the present.

Sigh... This morning. Had a serious argument with my Mom.

It felt so hurt...And it almost torn my heart into pieces.

Does she even realize ? I can choose to ignore her and wouldn't treat her as my mom if I want to. I can do that really. Indeed , I choose not to.

Just a simple reason. She's my Mom.But sometimes , doesn't mean you will get the exact same respect you wanted to have.

Even just a simple one.

So stressful.. and frustrated.My mind came out with all those negative possibilities which eventually causes me to just kill myself immediately.

For all of the sudden.Everything , seems hopeless to me.

I don't know , what's my purpose of living anymore.My life seems to become a mess.Even sometimes , I have no idea what have I done , what am I doing ?

I am lost.My brain.. can't seems to be logical and judgmental as usual.

I am just a nobody.  

My heart... crashed.

Went to my auntie's house.That's the warmest place I could only seek for right now.As usual , she brought me some coffee , and some snacks to served me.Asking about my recent conditions..My studies.. Then encouraged me with some wonderful words.She always encourage me , no matter what.

Somehow... I really hoped that she can be my Mom.Even just for once.Sorry...

I met Tom today , thought that I would be happy and forget everything about the argument that happened this morning.

He's waiting for me at The Old Town cafe somewhere near UTAR.

I walked In , tried to search for him.As usual , he's the only guy that attracts my attention with a spotlight above him. Still that handsome , that cool.I stood there for long..Looking at him.. He is trying so hard to memorise his notes.I missed that serious look of him. 

I haven't met him for over a week.I just missed him so much. :) Can't wait to hug him and kiss him.But somehow , something stopped me when I tried to approached him.Is my gloomy feelings..

But at the end , I still did.Whenever I hugged him , my tears are going to roll out.I don't know why...Maybe... I have found a shoulder to lean on ? I tried so hard to stopped my tears from bursting out.But the more I tried to hold on , the harder I hugged.

Still , I couldn't stop myself when we both are in the taxi.Luckily he sat in the front , and I wept behind.

At the bus , I turn my head away from him , cause I really can't hold it anymore.I knew he discovered that I am crying.But still , I am stubborn enough to admit that.

Just like that , I wept all along until we both reach the destination.

My mind still flashes out all those negative thoughts...And my awful past.
   
One of the most famous writer , Teddy , told that :

"The past has been the past, the future will always come, the only moment you can seize , is now."

Is true.

We often remind ourselves to grab the opportunity for now.But without consciously , we still concede ourselves to live in the past as well as in the future.Why ?

I took the whole day to figure out the answers , and the solutions.

At last , I found it. Escape is the answer.

We are trying to so hard to escape from the reality , and by living in the "past" as well as the "future" , makes a better place for us to escape from the facts.

And by thinking about my past , by thinking about my problems , by thinking about all those negative thoughts , it makes me felt that , I am destined to live to a life like this and that is why , It eventually creates an excuses for me to ran away from all my problems and let it remained silent without having any will to face myself and face others.

Escaping from realities , refused to live in the present moment , can be something scary and horrible.Because you will never know , how many things you had missed , how many great moments you had passed by without grabbing it...How many wonderful moments you had been through but you had never appreciate it... Did you even tried , to slow down your steps in life , remember all the goods that you've taken ? Or the best thing that still remains in your surroundings ?

Only by laying down our thoughts on constantly living in the past and the future , we then will be able to face the reality which we are always afraid of.So that we may indeed , Live in the present of life.

Your thoughts will decide whether sadness or happiness.

People who are happy doesn't mean they are living without sorrows.But rather they knew how to let their problems go ,and continue to live in the present.Even when there are moments which troubles them , they still manage to keep a happy state of mind.

SO TOUCHHH !!!!!

OK ! I don't want to act like proud :P But this really makes me proud xD !!

Just read something from Isaiah's my lovely Di Di blog

And here's what I've seen

Esther

" A very warming, charming and loving sis... I thank God that you appeared in my life... Thanks for really caring me like a lil bro... I remember the time when I told you about the chest pains and stuff.. You were really concerned... I can feel it... And you even offered to accompany me to that awful UM Hospital... Which you eventually did... You gave lots of encouragement and advice... I thank you for that... Believe me, God is gonna bless you with good things ahead... Amen? "

OH MY GOD ISAIAH DI T.T SO TOUCH ~~ DAI GOR JOR ~ JIE JIE SO PROUD OF YOU ~~ *snif snif*

xD !! LOL

Thanks for your dedication as well as appreciation ~ Love you ;)

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Art Exams T.T One of the most unique exams of all ~

Forgot to bring exams slip today ! >,< I left it together with those Public Speaking Lecture notes ! arggg !! Call Action Karmen she said don't know ~ ask her who else haven't go to school yet ? She said don't know ~ =.='''

Ah !! Search for myself lah !!

Luckily Eat shit haven't go to school yet ~ and she help to print that stupiak slip >,<

Funny thing is that , my driver beside me :P that's Mr. Einstein ~ He help others to print the exam slip but he somehow forgot to bring his own exam slip xD !! GOSH !!!

So basically , Eat shit save the day !! xD

Mr Einstein so cute !! xD Still nodded his head and say thank you to Eat Shit xD

But 5 minutes later....

Einstein : Wei esther ah ! Why the slip you give me is other people's name de !? What ... Chow ....

LOL !!! Eat shit mistaken the slip xD !! HAHAHAHAHH !!!

And my bunch of friends , man , they don't seem to be panic at all ~~ All laughing and relax and enjoying themselves while I acted like a weirdo keep asking question

Me : What is Propotion yeah ? Did you seen the past year paper ? Hard lah section C ~~

Adrian kept talking crap ~ What TAI PING space lah ~ Mortuary lah ~ He said the feel at PD looks like Mortuary wor , then scream inside the lift lah ~

Action Karmen transform back into her original power again ~ But today she kept acting cool , ask her one question she reply one answer ~ Then kept bagi muka busuk don't know what happen ~ ( but her face always busuk one lah ~ That's her nature ~ xD )

FY FY kept making jokes lah ~ together with jayne ~ Jia yi and Shadow ~ Kept laughing laughing laughing makes me laugh as well ~

In ru almost late for the exams ~

LA LA bring her honey together ~ Her honey still said want to attend the exams with her so sweet ~

Is great to have TB1 back again ~ ^^

Now , this two days , me and Kai Jun kept laughing at Mr Einstein. Lol Kai jun I can say he owns one of the best humour sense ever ~ xD Mr Einstein always kena xD and I always laughed like mad sitting beside them both xD Couldn't help myself ~ If me and Kai Jun cooperate on making Mr Einstein's life miserable , sure DIM ah ! xD

Hope Mr Einstein can full fill his wish on being  SAKAI in Africa , or having a peaceful morning everyday at New Zealand Farm , leading animals and sing his favourite song >> TAII ~~~~ YANG ~~~~
 
xD so happy ~

Yay ! 26 september going to PD !! I hope all TB1 will participate in this self organize event :)

PUBLIC SPEAKING EXAMS TODAY.

Lol , woke up early in the morning at 5am just to study that damn Public Speaking lecture notes xD

But still , beh tahan , my eyes felt so heavy... felt like giving up , just write anything I know that's all. But when I remind back my form 6 >.< ahhhhH !!!! NOOOOOOOO !!!! CAN'T !!! WAKE UP ESTHER WAKE UP !!! Until this morning , my face look like shit.

Then went to school , searching for ACTION KARMEN. But when I saw her , I couldn't hold myself to stunned for a while... cause ACTION KARMEN transform into ... PUHHHHH !!!! XD SORRY SORRY !!
HAHAHAHAAHH !!! HOHOHOHOHOHOH !!!!!! HAHAHAHAAHAHH !!!!! HOHOHOHO !!! HOHOH !!!

LOH HON GOH KARMEN !!!

HER HAIR !! HER HAIR !! XD !!!! Oh my god her hair !!! xD  Everybody is looking at her hair !! xD

At the end , KARMEN seems a little bit pik chek d xD :P

But seriously , your hair actually normal de , just that , don't know lah , people can't seems to accept the new change of yours xD 

LOL sorry KARMEN :P

Then Adrian voice xD !!! HAHAAHAH !! HAHAAH !! SO NIANG AGAIN !!! HAHAHAAHH !!!

You guys ah !! Always making me laughed like shit !! xD
Then ... When I saw Eugine's boyfriend , I asked Eat Shit about him... cause I thought that guy is from our school. But Eat Shit and Selina told me that he is not a student in UTAR. I was like WHAT THE FUCK !? Gosh , so this few days , he consider as a pendatang haram lah ? No wonder I don't feel familiar with his face lol But hey , cool , he sneak in Eugines class and have class with her COOL !! XD

Like what Isaiah did last time , bring along Alicia ~ LOL that one lagi geng ! Alicia stood up and debate also RAJA didn't notice ~ SHENG AH !!

TB1 :p Crazy class ~

Then when EAT SHIT asked something about...

Eat Shit : Your Dai Zhek Lou leh ? Ask him to accompany you like this lah ~ LOL

They both laughed at the same time.

......
 
My Dai zhek lou. LOL HAHAH HAHA ! HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHH !!!!

Haiz... Speechless. I'm like a stupiak I know. God tells me what to do?I really don't know what to do anymore.

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Thanks In ru :)

 

Last night , very pik chek.This time , I won't use any proper english to write my blog and I don't care. I just wanted to complain.  

Everything seems not right , everything needs me to solve it while others like doesn't care at all. They just care about themselves that's for sure. 

I decided to blocked everyone in my msn.I even off my phone. But then...

All of the sudden , In ru send me an instant message through msn. Asking me why so late haven't sleep ? I felt so pik chek then I just answer him a one or two.But when he asked for the reason why.. I just complain and complain and complain to him non stop. So we decided to use the mic , but then the baria line keep on got problem so he decided to call me. We both chat until around 5am early in the morning.. Then I realize , I have use much of his phone credit d... sorry yeah In ru >.< I'm so bad... But thanks for talking to me.. it makes me felt really good.Thanks for your jokes , thanks for your advice... :) Thanks for everything. Muaks ! IN RU :)

While I felt pik chek , then a friend of mine tambah my pik chek lagi , what lah ~ people all worried about things which are more important more serious you come and tell me you have an unnecessary argument with your girlfriend. Like a child. I know you want to talk with me , you can't find someone else to talk fine , but please la , everyday the same , you not sienz meh ? I also sienz la ! Why everytime the same thing happen and happen again ? Means you haven't found the solution yet la ! You know what's your solution ? Scold her lah !! Scold her until she wake up !! Better !! Then hor , your girlfriend also the same one lor , so barbarian thinking for what la ~ Very cool meh playing mind games with you ? You both ah ~ Please la appreciate la ok ? Others want such a sweet love also cannot you come and tell me you both argue because of a small tiny thing ? Which other people if they listen to you also think this is very WU LIAO lor !

 And please la this girlfriend yeah , appreciate your boy boy ok ? Your boy boy is one of the best boy boy I ever seen lor !! You can rely on him , can play with him , can scold him , can buly him , he also nothing.He try his very best , he try so hard so hard just to make sure you get the best thing in your life but still , what's wrong with you ? Don't you think you are being too barbarian by relying on him too much ? Why can't you just appreciate someone that loves you that much leh ? Or else you want to appreciate someone who screw your life like shit is it !?  He's the best already lor !! What else you want !? Other girl they want also can't and yet they still hold on to their own love ! You !!? FAILURE !! What also want to argue , keep on wanting him to care for your feelings , then your feelings always WU LIAO de , don't need to care also nothing one , even though he care also nothing de , do you think this is funny ? OK lah I dont' know about you girls lah maybe you girls wanted to play such a mind games so that you girls can keep your boy boy forever with you la , I REALLY DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU GIRLS LA !!! I DON'T KNOW HOW TO PLAY MIND GAMES LAH I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS MIND GAMES LA !!! I DON'T KNOW HOW TO PLAY MIND GAMES SO THAT I COULD MANAGE TO KEEP A BOY BESIDE ME LA !!!

I just know.. if you really love that person. You don't need to play any mind games just to screw him or her life up. Cause is really confusing. You are not only making him or her confusing , you are making yourself confusing as well. Aren't you tired ? Love is suppose to be simple please don't make it complicated.And if you really love that person , you won't make him or her worried about you all the time. Because you don't want them to feel sad , you don't want them to feel worried you don't want them to feel unsecure.

IN RU : What's the point of having him or her beside you if you can't even make them feel secure about their own relationship ? Means you really haven't mature about love yet , Just break up lah ! Don't kacau others life like shit !!

I don't know , what's the point of playing all these method and technic ? I really don't know. Maybe , you guys can say that I am silly , I don't know how to attract a men's heart and grab them tight forever , but truly lah please. I don't know. And if can , I REALLY DOESN'T WANT TO KNOW ABOUT IT AT ALL !!! I CAN'T BE A BITCH I CAN'T I CAN'T I CAN'T !!!

argggghhhh !!!!

I AM SO FED UP WITH EVERYONE SURROUND ME !!! FUCK OFF !!  

 

Coward and Chicken

 

What is Coward ? What is Chicken ? It reminds me of a friend of mine asked me a question about the difference between Coward and Chicken.

Well , I gave him my answer.

A Chickens , refers to those who aren't dare to do certain things , things which doesn't matter to anything eventhough you did not do it.

For Example

Afraid of the pain dare not to have tattoo.

Afraid of the max speed dare not to speed the car.

Afraid of the dark dare no to walk along the graves.

etc etc

'Cause of all these , your friend may laugh at you.

For the Cowards , they may likely to have tattoo , to speed the car to walk in the graves without having any fear as chickens did.

However , for cowards , when they started to encounter situations which relates to their own moral conscience and values , whether it is helping someone else or solving the conflicts that occured etc etc.They do not have the courage to do it , or becomes panic while facing complicated situations , having a hard time to face their own Psychological problems and then ~~ >>>> They miss away the prime times , miss off the chance to fix anything that could only be fix in a short while , perhaps leading them to forever life-long regret.

Chicken , is a question of Courage.

Coward , is a question of characters and values.

Chicken , only dares to do minor things. They do not have the courage or have the wish to do major things in their life.

Coward , always having the wish to blindly escape from life's events.

Chicken = Conservative attitude.

Coward = Evading attitude.

Chicken are those who afraid of death.

Coward , on the other hand , neglecting those who are in trouble.

The question is , do you want to be a chicken ? Or a coward ? Or both ?

My answer , non of it.

 

The true Liberal of Love.

“The life which you pursuit yourself , belongs to you. After all , the hands of parents , is not the hands of God Almighty. "

An American Psychologist Wendy Mogel put a well said on her own speech :

"Parents blindly wanted their own children to have a better life than other children does.But they do not teach them on how to be a good and well manner kid.As a result, children have been spoiled.They all are very particular about their own , but are insensitive towards other's feeling."

Which is very true.

Another Psychologist also claimed that

"The negative Impact of Over-indulgent and perfect requirements towards a child are equals to mentally abused and violence."

Hardworking parents should really calm down their own mind and think about it , What are the things you should help your children and what are the things you shouldn't help your children to get through them ?

This is their own life , if parents could just stand there and let those kids to learn from the mistake that they've created on their own and learn how to solve it rather than you parents helping them to overcome the problems. It would be more clear that your children will own a better and more successful life in the future.They will learn more about the Independence as well as determination which they need , in order to survive in this world.   

The only life that belongs to you , is the life where you pursuit it on your own.

The hands of parents , can only be the hands that rocks the cradle. After all , it is not the hands of God Almighty.Couldn't expect them to hold you up forever.

If one still have no idea on what are the things that they should do it on their own instead of seeking for parent's help. I can assure you , even though your parents have help you getting through the front point , you will still get lost on the middle of your journey.

In this case , for those over indulgent and hardworking parents , you drown yourself together with your kids.

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TB1 MEMORIES PART 2

 

  

Looking at this Gloomy sky... I wonder... Why everything changes so fast ? Everything surround me... it came so sudden and walked away quickly...What is the sign from God anyway ? I couldn't get it...

 

My heart felt the pain... the sadness... depression but still , I couldn't do anything about it. I thought about TB1... My beloved class... thought about all these precious classmate which I would never expect to have them... thought about all the things that happened before.I didn't cry... cause my tears are already empty... The only thing I can do , is to look at the sky... listen to one of my favourite Gymnopedie by Eric Satie.

 

I promise some of my classmate that I will finish my next post >> TB1 memories part 2.Now here it is. Is dedicated for you guys.  

 

I will start off with a girl from my gang.I met her while I was late for my account class if I wasn't mistaken. She was having this NS traning until she was late for the class about some weeks. When I walked in , and had seen another girl sitting with Jin Shan... my mind was kinda curious.. Why on Earth there is a girl which I had never seen before sitting with Jin Shan ? Coincidently , beside her is an empty slot , I fit in then. I sat beside her , at first talking with Jin Shan , I forgot whether Jin Shan introduce her to me or I asked for her name on my own , but then I knew , her name is none other then YinFy the great.

 

We started off talking crap.. everyone knews that Jin Shan own this kind off SPECIAL attitude ( ya know what I mean ) so , suppose me and Jin Shan are one of the perfect team ever , talking crap all the time.. you know what crap it is ? :P ya know what crap it is :P But when I heard what this FY FY said... I was totally shock.I couldn't believe my eyes ! My ears ! That this Fy Fy will be that.. be that... AMAZING.You know what she said ?

 

FY FY : " Bet Bet "

 

OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!! !!!!!!

 

YAY !! NEW CRAZY TEAM MEMBERS !!!

 

xD !!! You definitely are belongs to >>>>>>>>>>>>> TB1 !!!!!!

 

This is how I know Yinfy.

 

Then there is once , she fetches me , Tom Tom and Shadow to Jaya One... A stupiak baria car suddenly cut off her road , Immediately , she stopped her car and said

 

YINFY : WOI !!! DIAO NI !!!

 

This,is our Yinfy.She is always that true,straight forward and honest. ( Extreamly honest ) xD

 

She is kind , nice and sincere. But when she start to scold you will run away like hell.  

 

Another Girl , woah ! She lagi extream lor. xD

 

 

When I first came to UTAR , and I met her through some friends of mine..We were all talking and chatting happily at first , and she suddenly came towards me then... touches my STRAWBERRY SPREAD FACTORY. ( get it ? :P )

 

... ...

 

OH MY GOD !!!! xD !!!

 

I don't even know her name yet ... she already... irrupted my... privacy... Jin Shan !! I LOVE YOU :P xD

 

Then she always touches here touches there , so I touches here touches there with her lor ~

 

But well , she's a nice , friendly happy go lucky girl. You always feel comfortable being with her. ;) and she's a leng lui instead but... haiz... Jin Shan , why you turn yourself like this leh ?

 

But lol I know she felt kinda pik chek when I always criticize those music she plays in her car. xD

 

JIN SHAN : Next time oh ! I want to change pendrive already lor xD ! Put a folder just for Esther ! Whenever Esther came in , I will play that folder specially just for Esther lor ! xD

 

aha !!

 

I remember there was once , our English Lecture Raja who owns one of the sexiest porn star body figure ever ~ I am sure some of you guys agree with me lol.Ever since I saw her from my very first English lecture class , her confidence ~ her appearence ~ her wearing ~ woah ~~ her sexy body ~ so BADAI ~

 

ok ok enough. I was talking about a guy in my class who is very very cute ( doens't suits his face ) very funny , very happy giddy ~ if you want to identity this guy , just remember to pay attention on his hand , when you see a guy holding a handphone and a bag behind him everyday keep sms like hell don't panic don't doubt about your answer , yes yes it is him the one and only ISAIAH HANDPHONE GEEK !!! TENG TENG TENG TENG !!!

 

At first , I only knew that this guy is a friend of Adrian.But when I started to notice him , Is when Raja held a debate activity during the English Lecture Class ( Raja do loves Debate , no wonder her name calls RAJA ) His rasional thinking and his confident attracted me , he is smart and never afraid of the crowd. He is creative and was famous by the name of SHAVER which he created the story on his own.

 

Our very first chatting is through msn. Where he asked something about Adrian from me :P ( Adrian , don't ask what is it ) xD

 

Then , eventually , he became my DI DI xD he called me JIE ~

 

We all worried about his health at that time , when he was sent to the hospital in UM.That is one of the most shocking scene ever when I seen him falling down on the ground. Oh my god !! Can't believe that actually happens.Almost the whole class went to hospital for him and absent for the English tutorial class ( I wonder how Mr Yaw feel that time lol ).

 

But when we discoverd that it is not a heart attack but rather Masculin pain.

 

CHEH ~~~~ which baria doctor said heart expand ah ? Diu !

 

Whatever it is... Isaiah... take care ok ? I hope next year Jie will still have the chance to cook your favourite ABC porridge for you. LOve you *hugs* ^^

 

LOL

 

I used to have a little crush with a guy in my class. :P I think is just an admiration.

 

Adrian , you have no way to run. xD

 

When I first came to UTAR.I haven't met him yet cause his name is in the list , but his body is not in the class.I assumed that he is a PHANTOM.But on the second day , a guy wearing glases sitting on the guy's section near somewhere behind me was looking at me when I tend to look at him. Our eyes slightly touches a little. xD

 

For several times our eyes tend to connect with each other for a while. LOL I still remember once he is trying to be funny by showing me his middle finger towards the teacher infront... LOL Then we both are like smiling with each other as a respect whenever we seen each other. xD ( ok Adrian I knew you are going to puke when reading this xD )

 

But why am I that fond with him that time yeah ? xD Because , first , you look smart , that's the first key , when you perform yourself , wah ~~ SAK AH !! We girls are like eee Adrian again ~~ That time , Action Karmen , LA LA both knew that I have a crush on you xD !!

 

They even help me to cover when I start peeping on you xD Some said that you look like a kid holding a bag infront of you wearing just a white t shirt and shorts xD but I think you are mature that time xD Your smile touches me xD ( what means that time ? now not lah ? )

 

But that's just for a short while ~ ;) Then slightly , I began to turn my interest on... you guys know who lah ~ The rumours spread so big already ~ who doesn't know ? cheh.

 

you ah ~ Adrian , always Jxxxx Jxxxx when that Jxxxx walked near by. STUPIAK ! Still showing your fly movement xD what the heaven are you thinking man ? xD

 

Right now , I only have TOM TOM in my heart ;)

 

( and the crowd goes >> buwek !! *vomit vomit* )

 

LOL I think is time for me to stop here , the part 3 to be continue.. xD

 

　

　

　

Chinese Orchestra on Saturday Night

 

Went to Chinese Orchestra Yesterday, with ma TOM TOM xD

 

Surprisingly , La La went to Ochestra with her Boy boy as well xD

 

Yinfy , Adrian , RU RU as well as Kun Kun are there as well xD But kun kun aren't sitting with us. Why ? Because... we argued. NO !!! He perform lah ~ stupiak ! xD

 

I was so Giddy last night xD that's what TOM TOM said. Because firstly , whenever comes to Orchestra and Music , I would be really excited like a mad woman. Secondly , some of the TB1 gangs are over there , you know lor ~ TB1 all crazy de ~ I saw them laugh then I ma laugh lor ~ Thirdly , things actually happens during the Ochestra Show , it makes us laughed like mad xD

 

I message Adrian before the Orchestra show , and asked whether what are they going to wear for the show. Adrian said , a formal t shirt with a Jeans. Then I told him , erm... My boyfriend yeah , he wear very formal... a little bit too over oh ? Then Adrian said , erm.. haha

 

So I asked again , but you guys all wear formal lah ?

 

Adrian said , IN RU very casual today. haha...

 

At last , I still insist to wear formal because , first , this is a Chinese Orchestra Show. To show my manner and respect , I should wear formal so that it does look like an Orchestra and is more appropriate.

 

After spending some time on shower , clothes , and... games :P you lah stupiak ! His Mom started to kena us already... saying that : " Youngster nowdays ah ~ very terrible "  Sorry auntie >.< for kept you waiting so long. I know she boh song jor. LOL

 

 but this Tom yeah , push the responsibilities to me lor. What ? I am doing your hair wor , wei , you didn't use the time one is it ? blek ! You use the time on your games leh ? Then facebook ? fish ah , mafia wars , pig city lagi bla bla bla

 

But truly , we did spend some time on making his hair. xD Not much , but memorable. The classical songs from my blog Clair de Lune is playing during the moment ... so peace and serene. We both love birds just looking at each other , I hug him.. sayang him. I LOVE HIM. I make him a nice hair at the end. But it doesn't last long cause we KENA XD

 

LOL

 

Whenever I called Adrian , his voice are so niang ~ so girly and softy ~ like fy fy ~  xD I almost laugh my ass off when he pick up the phone xD oh my god ~~ what happen to you ah ?

 

When we arrived at UM. The first thing we saw was a bunch of students wearing T shirts taking photos outside the DEWAN PERDANASISWA in UM.And the first thing Tom told me , was

 

" Very Epic Fail lor , you see what they are wearing ? Oh my god ~ ~ We are wearing like this oh my god ~~ "

 

When we walked in , Adrian and the gangs are waiting inside. Fy Fy looked so beautiful that day , without the glasses , and the pinky make up , she looks sweet and leng lui ~ With that formal dress wah ! Lagi ! eeeee ~~ FY FY ~~~ LOVE YOU ~~ Don't wear glasses next time lah ~ wear contacts ok ? xD

 

But then ... the question came. Why are we wearing like this while others are wearing... just T shirts ? Oh my god ~~ FY FY said , very K yeng Lor ~ Is like only a whole bunch of us are special and classy type of people. We are VIP.

 

But whatever it is , I still hold on to the principles on Dresses for Orchestra event ! Should be FORMAL !! YAY !  

 

During the Orchestra , lol ! Two leng lui with sexy Cheong Sam came out and introduce themselves and also the whole UM Chinese Orchestra histories ~ One of the leng lui , using forced English accent , I felt kinda weird.... but nevermind , you leng lui I forgive you xD Then another VIP ah Pek using his... lol !! xD lost teeth Chinese accent xD !! I laughed like shit man !! ( ok Tom I know you felt very DU LAN , sorry but I really can't control myself in that situation , IN RU keep on laughing makes me laughed as well xD )

 

Then another scene was , when a guy on the stage he is playing the ER HU. Suddenly ! A music book behind him just drop out from no where , xD I try to hold it ~ hold it ~~ hold it ~~ xD !!! noooooooo !!! I can't !!! LOL !! ARGGG !! SO FUNNY !!

 

One of the best part was , when Tom told me that he hated if they play WONG FEI HONG'S theme song.Heaven knows his word so damn kena to the spot ! They really did played WONG FEI HONG'S theme for the next closing theme ! xD YENG AH !! Again , I laughed like mad xD

 

While the Orchestra team are playing WONG FEI's Hong theme , there is a part where the sound of a trumpet will came out , a guy stood up so lan YENG like he is going to ZHEK CHOU ( fighting ) all of a sudden pull out a little trumpet and began to plays it. It was indeed , so damn funny !! This is totally crazy ! xD When I look at him properly , I discovered that he is one of my Senior from my formal secondary school. LOL XD KUM HING !! SO NGAM AH !?

 

This is the best part , at then end when all of them finish playing the themes for tonight , they just stood there without going anywhere ( usually after finish performing the whole thing , the performers will tend to go ) which I felt weird for that , then there is a bunch of audience beside me started to scream ENCHO ENCHO ENCHO ENCHO !! Then we TB1 friends ma scream >> LIN KUN LIN KUN LIN KUN LIN KUN !!

 

After the whole ENcho screaming moments , the bunch of performers that stood there , sat down again perform another two songs. You guys can get what I say ? VERY PURPOSELY LOR ~ PURPOSELY STAND THERE PURPOSELY FIND PEOPLE TO SCREAM ENCHOR =.=''' Then jia jia sit down perform again

xD

The best thing is that , it slightly became a concert , because at the end , suddenly a very modern music was played then the guy who used to be a conducter during the show ( Which I am very fond with at the first place , he looks like a professional conductor so cool !! xD ) shows up walking together with a mic and say

 

"Welcome to our show tonight I hope you guys enjoying the moment where bla bla bla bla ~~"  

 

We are like .... When did it became a concert d ? =.='''

 

IN RU still thought he is going to sing some songs ! xD

 

Then after the sentence above , he again lead the whole team for the musics , this time , he is holding just a mic not the wand. LOL He tend to use his hands to lead the team but the way he lead is really .... "REMARKABLE" xD !! Imagine when a guy shaking his hand and head like kena rasuk xD how does that feels to you ? xD

 

Adrian said : He seems like kena diseases...

 

Me : Like electric shock xD

 

We all talked about this after the Orchestra and all of us agree , it is still. DAMN FUNNY !!!!!! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH !!! THAT CONDUCTOR !!! HAHAHAHAHAH !!!!! XD

 

At night , we all have our dinner time in MURNI. Woah I never knew such a small small mamak have such many variety of food choices... those food and drinks over there are so special and creative. The price is reasonable as well , aren't that expensive. Wah !! the honey dew special , really special lor ~

 

Guy! If anyone of you are interested with super mamak stall ! Come over to SS2 and go MURNI ! YAY !

 

KASKADE : Strobelite Seduction

 

 

Kaskade was born in 1972 in Chicago, Illinois. He later moved to Salt Lake Cityin 1992 to attend the University of Utah ( not UTAR xD ). During this time he owned and operated a local record store, Mechanized Records In May 2000, Kaskade moved to San Francisco and began working as an A&R assistant for Om Records.

Chicago-born KASKADE was determined to entrance the world with electronic techno, utilizing his skills to craft the type of music that makes body-moving, body-rubbing, and body-uncontrolling possible. Kaskade now makes his home in San Francisco, but that hasn't helped him forget his Windy City roots: "I was molded by the city that I grew up in: Chicago" (press release).

Strobelite Seduction is the fifth album in Kaskade's electrifying catalog. The most impressive aspect of his music is the fact that no two songs ever sound the same. From the traditional electronic opener "Move For Me" (listen here), to the disco-tinged "Angel On My Shoulder" to the Hilary Duff-inspired "Back On You," to the Enya-like "Borrowed Theme," to the sensually mellow "I'll Never Dream," Kaskade finds the right beats to go along with the right melodies with the right lyrics at the right times.

But it should be noted his fundamental underlying theme is having fun.

With streaks of frenetic joy to moments of relaxed comfort, Seduction almost perfectly encapsulates a night on the town, especially the inclusion of the ever-present exciting desire for uncertainty and surprise. It's no wonder the album is titled what it is, which Kaskade declares as "a justification of my weekends in big dark rooms with flashing lights and pounding sound systems. I was seduced by the strobelite" and its ever-changing existence.

KASKADE Strobelite Seduction

I personally love Your Love Is Black ever since I listened to it at the first place. It sounded so sexy and blue... a little bit lazy feel ~ ~ I can always feel something from it.Its styles of music is different than the usual Kaskade's House music , by adding lots of sorrow and pain through its lyrics ... combine with this smooth R@B genre. It sounded new and refreshing. A new surprise from Kaskade actually. Your Love is Black is also one of the top hits among the Strobelite Seduction tracks.

Imagine if you are sitting under the stars on top of the roof , holding an alcohol , singing this sexy sad song. Just break up with your love one.  Or when the sky turns gloomy ~ and you are alone walking on the streets... and when the sky Is going to rain..You feel cold...Or driving along through this lonely city... Now how suit is that huh. ;)

 

 

 YOUR LOVE IS BLACK

Look out to the calm sea, I don't
know why that I want to cry when
I feel this high. Nature seems to
know me, so many times she's been
below me and so I sit and we dread
as my soul she tries to lit.
Seem's I lost my way lastnight
but I was repoed by daylight.
Seem's I get another chance, another
chance to dance away. Now you bring your
loving back, but don't you know your love
is black? And now your here pooring in
the dark, cause you can't see inside my
heart.
(my heart)
(my heart)
Look out, your love is black.
Look out, your love is black.
Look out, your love is black.
Close my eyes, and I can breathe
I can feel what is right what is
true, what is real.
Seems you lost your way lastnight
You were back here by daylight
and now your words are black and
Cold, and your lies are tired and
Old. Nature is calming me, cause
your love was harming me and now
I shed that colder harm or was it
safe there in your arms?
Look out, your love is black.
Look out, your love is black.
Look out, your love is black.

(Lost my way)

It's true I loved you once
It's true you were once mine

(I lost my way)
(I Lost my way)
(Lost my way)
Cause I lost my way
I lost my way
I lost my way


Lost my way,
Lost my way.

 

 

WOOOOOOOO !!! TB1 MEMORIES !!!

OH !! Exhausted !! Just came back from school... Thanks IN RU for fetching me back, I had a great time with you.Your driving skill yeng ah !

After helping Yang Yang to prepare the decorations for tomorrow's art exhibition , the time is already around 11 something... I had never stay in school for that long before... But nevermind , I had a lot of fun doing that. ^^ At least I won't be alone thinking too much.

In ru fetches us for some tea at Restaurant Purnama ~ Together with Susanna , Adrian , KUN KUN and Yang yang. Again , I had a great time with them.We kept talking crap and laughed like shit , wondering how's Adrian is going to present his MASQUERADE KING position for tomorrow's Art Exhibition.We taught him on how to pronounce those ancient English lah ~ Italian lah ~ French lah or what's so ever words , just promise he is bullshitting the whole way round and nobody knows it. LOL

I wish you guys for the best on your MASQUERADE ART EXHIBITION !!

I really have to say this , when IN RU is waiting for KUN KUN outside of his apartment , and when KUN KUN appeared at the end , the first thing KUN KUN did , was indeed , remarkable.

HE WAVES HIS HAND CUTELY TOWARDS ME WHEN HE SAW ME THEN ~

HIIII ~~~~~~~ *Body and head shaking abit* HOW CUTE !! XD

lol love you kun kun ~~ ^^ you are so cute nia ~~~

Is really comfortable talking to them once in a while , it changes my mood , my environment.

I felt really sad whenever I thought about we could never be together in a same class again for the next sem... I felt harsh... and depressed. I believe some of you felt the same thing as well..

Ah ~~ So many things happened during the first sem.Which is memorable to me.

I still remember the first day I came to UTAR. The first person that approaches  me , is INRU.

I came to UTAR alone , and thought I will be finishing my whole foundation without living any memories , just a normal life normal student trying to finish her damn foundation after failing form 6 , and struggling herself to proceed for degree courses.

I stepped into school , thought I was going to be late at that time... But... erm... lol no one is in the class. I am the first one standing over there , kept peeping through the door... was stunned that UTAR classes looks like... tuition center classes...

Then suddenly , a Simpsons face come towards me without any defence ~ He said : " Hi , you same class with me ? Nice to meet you , my name is IN RU.

" ah what ? INDRU ? "

" No , is IN Ru. "

" ? INDO ? ( Indo mee )

" IN RU ! "

" Oh hohho ~ ha ~ ha ~ ok ~ ha ~ " ( =.=''' weird )

Then I shake my hands with him and introduce myself as well. He told me that he is originated from KLANG , and that was the first time , I met my first new friend in UTAR.

 I just choose a place , sat there alone.Wondering who is going to sit beside me leh ?

Two cute girls came in , and one of them kept talking talking talking , her voice are loud and clear. Another one , eh ? Is the cuty leng lui I saw outside just now wor ~~~ She looked at me  I looked at her , we both like never look forever ~ ( xD oh my god crapping again )

Then this two girls choose to sat beside me , the other girl that kept talking , still talks when she sitted , and the other one , just kept quiet. Then the girl that first said Hi to me , was none other than the PHILOSOPHY  BOOK Queen , YAR DING. xD !!! ( LOL I always told her that she can published a book already whenever she mumbles again )

The other leng lui cute girl ? Is Jia yi. She seems a little bit defensive at that time. Unlike now , pumping her pumping there , speaking her korean accent ~~ Sooo ~ Cute.

Then all people came in , I never really noticed there is a girl with short hair then Trex face appear behind me. Never really noticed that. But I only noticed a girl with cute hair bend , walking towards our position and sat beside Yar Ding. When she started to introduce herself ,

" HI , My name is Yin Zhi "

Just all of the sudden , a word started scanning in my mind. SHADOW is word.

" What ? LOL Shadow. "

Then they all laughed ~ muahahah ~~ I always owns the ability to make people laughed muahahahh ~~~ that's what I am proud of xD

Our first class appeared to be Accounting ( wah ~ Maths again ah ? Figures again ah ? Beh tahan lah ~~ gosh ~~ ) But lol , this one , is amazing. When all of us still blanked in mind , wondering why are we going to continue all this bullshitting subject in UTAR foundations ?

SUDDENLY !!! ( magical words )

There's nothing like this happen before for the past of my century ~ History of all ages !! World of never before !! ( ? ) Et cetera !! Et cetera !! Glacias Sinorita buo kero !!! ( ? =.=  )

AN OUTSTANDING BARBIE OPENED THE DOOR WITH HER SOFT HANDS AND SMILED !! SHE SMILE !!? OH MY GOD SHE SMILE !!? XD

Her cute , sweet face smiled ( yeah lah yeah lah don't keep repeating lah ) LOL cause I only remember when she smiled. xD

But hey , never forget to mention there is a guy's voice ( who is it ? you sendiri tahu lah har ~ heh heh heh )  just went out from no where when she cames in

" PWOAH ! " is the word.

Wah ~~~~~ LENG LUI AH ~~~~~~ I guess that is our first Impressions towards her.

When I asked for her name , wah , she gave me this cool answer , you know how cool it is ? YOU KNOW HOW COOL IT IS !?

" ANGELA. "

NAH !! I TOLD YOU IT IS COOL DE LAH !! XD

ok , then now is KUN KUN turn.

When we bunch of girls are talking , I remember that time I was with Yar ding , and another friend of hers that attracted me at the first place , kept saying that I looked like a Japanese , thought like I am a Japanese , and I thought she is a mixed mexico tambah don't know what when I found out that she is actually a pure chinese .... I mean who cares !? With her nice butt and nice body figure ~ I am sooo ~~~ WOAH ! to her. 

OH ~ SO BADAI ~ ( body )

Kun kun just came out of no where , and hand out his hand like a gentlemen , using a gentlemen's voice.

" HI , I AM LONG KUN " ( imagine if you use a rough voice to say that , you could never imagine that is actually belongs to kun kun )

Then he talked about Chinese Studies lah ~ On why UTAR send him to Chinese studies and stuff like that lah ~ Then he brought along IN RU , YANG YANG and introduced them to all of us  ( What lah ~ like LIAN YI HUI ~ people shy lah ! shuai lou ~ )

I was surprise with the previous KUN KUN I've seen compared to the KUN KUN now LOL Is totally two different person xD ! But I really do like the KUN KUN now , more ~~ attrative and cute mah ~ ;)

WE LOVE YOU KUN KUN !! FOREVER !!

Then I shall tell you the beginning of the T REX's stories

This T rex ah ~ Never visible one wor. Always hide herself , until I don't even know that she's in my class de lor. When I first saw her , my first thought was , wah ~ hou yeng ah ! So cool ~
Angela is the only girl that noticed this T rex like I did. We both kept ~~ wahhh ~~~ so cool ~~~ yeng oh ~~? cool ~ leh ~~ eee ~~~ I want her ~~ aiya ~~ so waste , why girl ah ~? Nevermind lah ~ girl also want lah ~ I want ~ I want ~~ I want ~~ no loh I want first lo ~ she's mine loh ~ no loh ~ no loh ~ mine ah ~ mine ah ~ xD

Surprisingly , she's taking Broadcasting like I did. When we all introduced ourselves in Computer Studies tutorial , only then I noticed that she's from my class LOL.After all of us finished our tutorial class , I stepped outside the class and saw each of every one of the girls in my class surrounded her talking to her like she's a new kind of species , new kind of T REX ( cheh ) I tried to just stray away although I don't know why. But , she approaches me.

SHE APPROACHES ME LADIES AND GENTLEMEN REMEMBER THAT XD !! IS HER !!! IS HER !! NOT ME !! XD

With this lame sentence , she started her first greetings to me.

" BROADCASTING AH ? " ( Now you know how lame is it ? ACTION KARMEN !? )
 
You sitting behind me just now still want to asked this question ah ? How lame xD

" BROADCASTING too ? GOOD ! " Gave her a HIGH 5.

Then.. I know... I am as lame as her. SO ~ EQUALS

xD !!!

Then many things happen between all of us during the sem... Arguments , Happiness , sadness , and many many more...

Just three months... Our stories can write a book already lor.... Like I always told Yar ding xD

Three months... still... I think is not enough for us TB1.

I really hope this damn whole so called system will be cancel then leave us peace.

I really do pray that this miracle will happen. Because is hard to meet such crazy bunch of friends again.

TB1 FOREVER !!