Up in the Air – Atkinson performs Beethoven

This is a lovely performance on an invisible piano by comedy genius Rowan Atkinson (also known as Mr. Bean). The air piano act include two Beethoven sonatas: the first movement from the Pathétique Sonata No. 8 in C minor, Op.13 and the third movement of the Moonlight Sonata No. 14 in C-sharp minor, Op. 27, No. 2.


This was a part of Amnesty International’s ‘The Secret Policeman’s Ball’, filmed in 1979 and also starring such notable talent as John Cleese, Billy Connoly, Michael Palin, Peter Cook. The Secret Policeman’s Balls is the collective name informally used to describe the long-running series of benefit shows staged in England to raise funds for the human rights organisation Amnesty International. The shows started out in the mid-1970s primarily as comedy galas featuring popular British comedic performers and later expanded to include leading musical performers.

Someday , you can SHINE once more.

An amazing commercial from PANTENE.

You defeated me for once , but never forget that there are still Thousands of me Survive.

Someday , if I choose to SHINE , I CAN SHINE ONCE MORE !

I will , because I said so.

*Seriously , at the end , it kinda craps me out a little , I laughed like mad xD*

 

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Busoni – 25 original pieces and 15 Bach transcriptions

The Italian pianist Btant achievements as a composer were long over-shadoweusoni’s impord by the fact that he was generally thought the greatest piano virtuoso after Liszt.

He also made his mark as a respected teacher of both piano playing and composition, and as an editor of Bach’s keyboard music. His thoughts on Bach’s music have been highly influential, although his editions weren’t exactly what we today would call authentic.

The solo piano versions of Bach’s Toccata and Fugue in D Minor (for organ) and the Chaconne from the second Violin Partita are among his most well-known transcriptions.

True or not, the story of Busoni’s wife being introduced at a function as Mrs. Bach-Busoni says a lot about how famous Busoni’s Bach transcriptions were already in his own lifetime.

In spite of his interest in baroque and classical music, Busoni was certainly no backward-looking composer. In his writings he proposes the use of microtonal scales and electronics, and in 1912 he produced his first work “without tonality”, the Second Sonatina.

Busoni’s major keyboard work, Contrapuntal Fantasy, is based on the final, incomplete fugue from Bach’s Art of Fugue.

To have a look on Busoni's 25 Original Pieces and 15 Bach Transcriptions.You first have to be a Gold member of Piano Streets Online Library.

 

Just went back from Hospital Gleneagles ( Not Grand for God's sake )

Just went back from Hospital Gleneagles , For your information is Gleneagles not GRAND ( Meng Juan Meng Juan.. haiz ) To understand the directions from Serdang to Ampang , I checked by using Google Earth , and yes it is one of the most efficient way to find out the right direction for the right destination. But the name must be correct lah ~ I search for few minutes to discovered the right name for the Hospital , GLENEAGLES ! ~ GRAND .. WHAT LAH.

So we head to Hospital Gleneagles which is located at Ampang.Searched for her room and we found her... laying on the bed... looked really tired and dull.. She couldn't move except her arm and head. I saw those bruises on her arm.. gosh.. wonder how she felt that moment when she bang herself... Unbelievable...Couldn't Imagine how's that feel.

I felt a pain in my heart when I saw her , gosh... that feeling ... kinda kanasai.

I really do hope things like this wouldn't happen to her.. She still asked for my condition while she's in pain you know ? Haiz... Silly Alice... you rest lah. Sha gua.

Her family came forward to support her , a few formal classmate of mine also came forward to support her but just left. Even her boyfriend , lol also brought along his Buddies came forward to support her as well. See Alice ? We all Love you.You really need to take a very good care of yourself so that other's won't worry too much about you.

Gosh... so worried about her... She's going to start her surgery tomorrow... Doctor will put a screw inside her spine... She must be feeling afraid right now... although she looks ok infront of us...

Alice , you must be confident and brave alright ?

I wished to stay there and accompany her but hospital wouldn't allow so many people to stay...

I am so so so worried about her right now.. hope that she will sleep well... and get a good rest for tomorrow's operation..

Guess I can't sleep again tonight... I must visit her and stay there for her tomorrow.

Lord... I ask only for this favor for once again , Please give every of your power and strength for her... is so heartbreaking to see her in this sort of condition... Help her get through this as soon as possible... I know you will O Lord.. You are the only God I can seek for help non others... cause You are the most powerful God of all.. I trusted your power and your Holy Spirit.Protect her with the Hands of God and let nothing could harm her. Fight the Devils away , and build her strong beliefs towards you. Let her be courage and no fear for anything through your Holy Spirit... lessen her pain O Lord... Heal her as soon as possible so that she can be able to walk as usual again.. I only ask for this O Lord... By your name I pray.. Amen.

 

The Memorial of my MUSICAL STORIES.

These few days , stayed at home. BORED. So I really have to find something else to do.

Wanna find a job , nah , who would hired a person who works only for three weeks ?

I read books ( until my bed also full of books , I even slept with them =.='' )  , I learned new recipes , I went for sports. But still.. sigh..

I sort of lost every of my passion as a young adults since my first semester of college end...

 UNTIL !

Yeah , I searched back all my classical's music book. Started to played every single pieces of them out of my boredom.

But hey ! Gosh ! That feeling came out from me again , the feeling of SUCCESS and ART !! ART !! Muahahaha !!

Sitting infront of the piano , found myself drowning into music for over 6 hours.Non stop playing and trying for new pieces.

Somehow , I really do forget that I still have music as part of my life.The only greatest talent given by God. Cempaka , how can I abandon such precious thing which always lives in me ?

I should discover and Improve more about this talent of mine.If possible , I'll make it greater and greater day by day.

I wanna prove to myself , that I... LOVE MUSIC !!!! MUAHAHAHAHAH !!!

But...I also need money to hire a professional for proceeding my piano learning courses. :( haiz..  
BEETHOVEN LISZT RACHMANINOFF JOHANN SEBASTIAN BACH HANDEL HAYDN SCHUMANN CHOPIN MENDELSSOHN DVORAK ERIK SATIE VERDI VIVALDI ANDERSON MASSENET VAUGHAN WILLIAMS CHABRIER J STRAUSS DEBUSSY et cetera et cetera.

told ya my finest favourite still belongs to Classical. ;) The ancestor of all genre of music. 

I remember my very first classical music I listened to since I was a little ( Age 5 if I wasn't mistaken ) Is The Radetsky March , by J Strauss. I was so fond with this music until my mom also cannot tahan , bought all the classical music collections cassette for me.

But the one that encouraged me to start my piano lesson was non other than , guess what ?

Not Beethoven Fur elise or Moonlight sonata , not Pachelbel Canon In D , not Chopin Nocturne , not Clementine Piano Sonata no no no

but is non other than VALSE ,  " PETIT CHIEN " op.64 no.1 

That was the first ever piano classical music that encouraged me to touch those precious keys for my very first time. 

Amazing huh ? Yeah , music is always that amazing.

But later I tend to discovered the remarkably string sound from VIOLIN ~ Gosh , that was an amazing instrument which had ever been created. I thank the one who invented this great Invention of all.

I remember a boy who captured my attention by placing a Violin on his shoulder , playing it In a way which I can say , so charming and attractive. xD That day , I was Intended to perform my piano at a Musical College name YAMAHA.And this cute little boy... he was the last one to perform ( like I always said , the last is still the best )  THIS BOY RULES  MAN !! HE WAS GREAT !! He seems really calm and cool while performing his Violin , together with the masterpiece enchoring behind name BACH , Air On the G string. ( I bet all of you recognize this piece )

I was stunned at that moment. My world only Involves me and him.Everything surround me just lost.
My nerves went out , and my tears rolled out. I just wished if I were him. GOSH !! WHY !?

MOM  !! WHY PIANO !!? WHY !!?

And my mom says : " Because I hate Violin. "

....

CHEH =.=''' . No choice lor , the money belongs to hers. She can do whatever she wanted to.

But very sienz lor , My cousin all piano de  ~ ( believe me , ALL PIANO !! ) Now I also wanna continue piano meh ? SIGH...

UNTILL NOW , I never get rid of BACH from my mind. Especially Air on the G string. Cause this masterpiece reminds me of that boy. Who taught me the real meaning of VIOLIN through his playing. LOL I wonder how is he doing right now ? Did he continue his journey on Violin ? Must be great , cause he's a stunning Violinist.

Days went by , and I growed older. I STILL HATE PIANO !

HAHA ;) Just kidding. Nope I don't hate piano , in fact , I love piano more and more !! :D You can't hate that instrument if you wanna learn it well.So I found my ways to Love it , and now I really do love piano :D

Although , yes the chances of performing piano in an Orchestra stands only... a little percentage but who cares ? Piano is still outstanding , it still has its unique key sounds , its not that easy to play , it required lots of skills to play , it also represent most of the greatest musician back from the long long history till now. Want me to name them ? LOL Piano can be classical , can be modenize.

DJ Nujabes and Freetempo as well as OKAWARI uses Piano for his music , Beethoven and Chopin created lots of great masterpieces through Piano , Maksim was an internationally known Pianist for his remarkable piano skills , Evgeny Kissin , YUN DI LI , Richard Clayderman etc etc all Outstanding Pianist ~ JAZZ BOSSA NOVA PUNK ROCK POP R@B also requires Piano

All of these shows how important a Piano is for composing any kinds of great music.Piano is everywhere ! Everyone Loves Piano. Piano is so Internationally known and I dare to say that without Piano , it will be a great lost for everyone not only for Musicians in terms of Music.

Piano sounds great.That's the most simple reason why everyone loves it ;)

I started to learned the fact that every Instrument owns its attractive sides.

LOL , Still remember myself playing trumpet during primary days.The feeling was Indeed , BRAVO !!  I wanted to try Clarinet for my next ;) ~~

I love music , so I always get the passion to learn every different kinds of Instruments Including chinese instrumental. ( KUN KUN !! TEACH ME !! ) 

I had a friend , Woah he was so fond with Classical Musics until everything about him relates to that. He can even name out all those great musician's name , from which century , their background , their masterpieces and composing , and when did they died. Walao yeah ~ The whole day I was with him non stop chatting everything ! Everything about CLASSICAL MUSIC.

He got hundreds of Classical music CD'S Collection ( I don't know now maybe thousands :P ) And he even... often dressed himself with coat.He's a Violionist and a Pianist by the way. Is my pleasure to be his friend. :D He is taking music courses ( as everyone predicted ) right now in UK , LONDON ROYAL ACADEMY OF MUSIC. ( Yes yes Gerard is you no doubt )

Though my dream of proceeding my studies In a Music School and performing on stage can't be full fill at the end. ( Sorry Gerard can't fullfill my promise to proceed our music dreams together with you :(  I do hope I will get the chance to see you on stage performing your very own concert someday :D Pray for you. )

But I would NEVER EVER give up in music no matter what circumstances I'm facing ( woah ! 0_o )  

Music is my soul , as well as my passion. ;)

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LORD PLEASE HEAL ALICE !

I just received a called from Alice's sister , and discovered that Alice got car crashed by accident.

At first I thought it was a joke cause they always joke with me about these kinds of thing. But never knew that so called joke could be real T.T I really do hope everything still remain as a joke !

Her sister cried to me saying that Alice bang herself towards a big banners , and she broke her back bones... even her armed.. and was sent to ICU right now.. T.T gosh how could this happen !? She still called me this afternoon , why the hell things happened so fast !?

The Doctor said this could be serious and may lead her to disabled for three months or maybe more half years... Right now she's still in ICU.. LORD PLEASE HEAL HER WITH ALL YOUR POWER AND WILL !!

She must be very painful right now... T.T GOSH ALICE...

I just prayed with Isaiah about Alice..

I must repeat the whole prayer again and again tonight.. I hope she wouldn't feel too much pain.. She's even afraid of butts and easily fall sick while we are in camping , now car crashing !? No ways she's gonna feel better.. Lord please make her feel better...

Dear Heavenly Father...
We give thanks for everything YOu have done for us...
The blessings and all the things YOu have given to us...
Lord, we ask for Your forgiveness...
Now Lord
Our sister, Alice...
we lift her up to You Lord
you are our mighty God... Our deliverer, our healer...you are the Lord of lords and King of kings...
And we know
that You have given your life for us... by Your stripes... We  are healed...
Lord... We pray, your healing hands be upon sister alice
Your blood to cover her Lord...
Give her the peace, strength and mercy, grace and also love...
She needs You, Lord...
Be with her Lord...
In Jesus most precious name.. Amen..
 

Return to hands of God Almighty

Today is Sunday.

Finally I returned myself back to Jesus Christ after a deep fall.I could never think of anything else that would really wash away all my sins and forgive every of my mistake except my Father In Heaven.He is the only one that I could really seek for help and repent after all of the mistake and faults that I had done to Him.I disobey Him for once again , and turned myself back from Him like how I was being treated lately.But now I choose to seek for Him after I was hurt deeply.Though for how many times I betrayed and totally forget about Him , He still remain there for me , always... never ever thought of betraying me nor leave me...

Our Lord God Almighty is always the greatest Father for us.He will never abandon nor forsake us during our harsh time.

LORD GOD O FATHER IN HEAVEN :

I knew I had make my biggest mistake by eagerly to free myself from your Spiritual Wall Lord Father. I knew , my wish to find for my own freedom had also cost me a big sacrifices.For many times you tried so hard to protect me and gave me hints on the danger that I will about to face if I stray myself away from you , but my Egoistic and Selfish characters disobey your will and your order , I always find ways to climb out from your Spiritual Wall , and cause myself being influence by the dark world out there.I don't want to live a life as you told me to , and I was so naive to convince myself that without you I will still walk a better life , I can still survive In a way I want to , I can still create the stories which I always dream of , I can still get the pleasure I want to have. I refused to follow your teaching and your rules, and I am so arrogant to think that I CAN BE WHO I WANT TO BE without your rules , without your teaching.

I hated the way you teach me , and your rules seems so old fashion to me. I found myself stepping in a world which I thought it seems more modernize and realistic , and it also symbolize the freedom and luxurious life which I always wanted to have.

Lust , Alcohol , drugs , cigarettes , parties , clubbing , swearing , complicated immature relationships living a life which I don't even know what's the truth meaning of it. I thought all these are just normal living for humans , is ridiculous if I restricted myself to not follow and involve myself into all these...

But I never knew.. that my thoughts had been fully controlled by the Devil.

I destroyed my own Wisdom that you gave by choosing the wrong path.I am a weak lamb , disappeared and ran away from the Shepherd for the sake of fun and freedom.I never knew about all the dangers out there , I never realize that the Devils are always finding ways to destroy we Christian as a Son and Daughter of Lord Jesus Christ.

That is the reason why you build the Spiritual Wall for us Lord Father,for purpose.

But we fools never seems to take notice about your afford.

I felt so ashamed of meeting you once more after what I had done.I thought Holy Father wouldn't want such a sinful Daughter like me.But I was wrong , cause I failed to realize that once again , you are giving me another chance to repent myself , to woke up from the mistake , to alert myself that I am walking back to my past again.

This time , you choose to learn me another lesson by sending another Human to test me.Let me discover that I am not as strong and smart as I thought I were before.I am still weak,and naive,I wasn't alert with what's happening and I never listen to my own self concious as well as remembering all the teaching you taught me,easily controlled by the Devils.

Lord... Right now.. I just hope to come back again , cause this time.. I finally manage to realize that how Important are you to me.How ungrateful I am to you before this,asking everything from you without giving you a return.Your request for me are just simple , that's being faithful to you , obey you , follow your teaching and always appreciate what you had gave me. But I failed to fullfill your wishes eventhough I know those are the things that I can manage to fullfill If I want to.I choose not to care and still ask for more from you.I am a reckless Daughter and I always failed your teaching.

And now , after the lesson you had taught me , I finally realize and understand how you feel.I was blind folded before this and now I'm finally awake from the nightmare.

Wash away all my sin O Lord and Once again , Let me serve you with all my will.

Forgive the one who had hurt me deeply , He doesn't know what is He doing.I shall not hate him because I do not want to bring any hatred when I'm Infront of you.My mind should be clean and pure, so that I can be a good example to others for you O Lord.Change him O Lord , like how you change me.I believe he still owns a good nature , but he had been confused and controlled by the Devil like me.I knew he was struggling , help him O Lord and Bless this child who was once belongs to you.Lead him into the right path without letting him straying away from your Spiritual Wall again.In Jesus Mighty name , I prayed , Amen.

I can only say that , we both are too young.Very Impulsive and never consider about the consequences that might occur.We are both selfish , always asking for more from each other.
We are generally the same kind of person but with different request and Intention.

We both are equally Ego and Self Center , never wanting to sacrifice too much on each other.Yet we wanted to change each other.Our view is totally different , you want me to be outstanding on the physical and outter part,on the other hand , I need you to be superb on the Inner soul part.When you can't fullfill my request,I pik Chek. When I can't fullfill your request , you felt disappointed with me.

But the difference is , I do madly In love with you before.But you mistaken your love for me.You don't love me , you're just curious about me , you found me different because I dare to approach you more than the other girl does.You found me special because I am the only girl who dares to talk to you , pointed out all your mistakes.You want to know why , and discover what is it all about me.But you never know, I had been approaching all kinds of people before,you are not the only one who I dare to do so.Then you started to create your own view about me , by creating those view , you began to put those own creation onto me and make a false presumption on me.But when you discovered the truth that I am different from the girl that you you always wished for all this while,you began to feel disappointed,then you ran away for the very first time.

But I had tide you back,you seen me cried when you told me that your feeling towards me had lost a bit.You pity me,dare not to end up with me,your self - concious had told you to try this relationship once again,and then you did.

But... things gone differently.Everything just change since from the very first time we met, not getting nicer , but getting worse.Obviously , you had shown your tiredness into our relationship.You don't want to make any afford on maintaining the Love between us anymore.Because,you really did lost your feelings for me.Unfortunately,I don't.My feelings for you are increasing day by day while yours are decreasing.I refused to end this so fast , I paid all my afford to get your attention back,but you never realize and notice that.Because you really don't care anymore.

Not only you,I found myself falling In Love with a guy which I don't think suits me at all.For me , you had transformed Into another person which I can't even seems to recognize anymore,honestly,sometimes I did felt disgust and annoyed with you.One of the reason I kept hold on to you without letting you go mostly is because, I couldn't accept the fact that,you don't love me anymore,you always showed your unwillingness to be with me and never gave me the respect I that want to have.You had made a lot of careless mistake into our relationship by purpose as well as abandoning all those promises.I felt so embarrased and humiliated to be treated this way.

I felt angry for it,thus,I refused to obey everything you want me to do and I began to fight back.I started to show my unsatisfaction towards your attitude,I argued with you,for several times just to test how important I am to you and was hoping that you will persuade me to stay.

But you never had any intention to do that.Unlike how you did to me for the very first time.

I started to feel the fakeness In you , I cried and struggle for so many times.But whenever I pick out the calls from you,my heart melts.I told myself again,hold on to you,pay more determination Into our relationship,have faith and believe in you cause maybe you don't love me as much as I did but you do love me somehow,soon you will sure understand my Love for you.

But I had paid a big price just to have your heart back.

For you,is just nothing.But for me,that's my dignity.The only thing that symbolize my value and prices.Is not that simply and simple.I know what you want,but pardon me,I don't think you are the guy that I can walk together with till the rest of my life.Because at the end, I discovered  your real Intention and If I continue to trap myself Into your request, I will loose everything.Is like a big investment to me.

That is why you started to ran away from me again for the second time.I knew it all along.Eventhough you deny it,eventhough you create thousands of lies to convinced me.Eventhough you tried to defenced yourself,I still knew what you are thinking. 

You can just walk away like nothing ever happen before,then start another new life,find another new one,but not for me.Whatever it is I still paid my full heart and soul for you,you want to count that ? I can say at least 80 percent on me has been given to you.

I just at least hope that you can tell me the truth.But it seems that I don't even deserve to hear the truth from you.

Actually, I already know the truth , but I could never accept that because when I choose to believe in you , I will believe In you till the rest of my life.I am that stubborn enough until no one can grab my trust for you except you yourself.Though you ran away for days and never called me for days I still convinced myself to believe you again and again,though you never picked up my calls and told me that you need time to think which is the same lame excuses those jerks will always gave , I still believe in your words.Though after we broke up , you still never had any intention to persuade me back and make me wonder you really don't miss me at all ? I still believe you have your own reason.

Silly me huh ? Yeah , I am silly just for you.But not again for now.Never again. 

Haiz... I just hope you won't repeat the same thing to the next girl again because that isn't really a right thing to do so,towards a girl.Please,at least,pay a full respect eventhough when you don't love her,tell her the truth stop delaying her time and continue using her then run away just like that.

At least respect her as one of those who you love before. Ok ? Gentlemen ?

We both are brought together due to misunderstanding and separate due to understanding each other well.

My friends bet that I will need 3 months to get rid of him from my mind but I had proved them wrong , I used only a month of time.And that cost me a lot,a lot.

Lord,Thanks for everything.This story shall end from here.

PSALM 30

 ¹ I will exalt you, O LORD,
       for you lifted me out of the depths
       and did not let my enemies gloat over me.

 ² O LORD my God, I called to you for help
       and you healed me.

 ³ O LORD, you brought me up from the grave  ;
       you spared me from going down into the pit.

 ⁴ Sing to the LORD, you saints of his;
       praise his holy name.

 ⁵ For his anger lasts only a moment,
       but his favor lasts a lifetime;
       weeping may remain for a night,
       but rejoicing comes in the morning.

 ⁶ When I felt secure, I said,
       "I will never be shaken."

 ⁷ O LORD, when you favored me,
       you made my mountain ^[c] stand firm;
       but when you hid your face,
       I was dismayed.

 ⁸ To you, O LORD, I called;
       to the Lord I cried for mercy:

 ⁹ "What gain is there in my destruction, ^[d]
       in my going down into the pit?
       Will the dust praise you?
       Will it proclaim your faithfulness?

 ¹⁰ Hear, O LORD, and be merciful to me;
       O LORD, be my help."

 ¹¹ You turned my wailing into dancing;
       you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,

 ¹² that my heart may sing to you and not be silent.
       O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever.

( Thanks Isaiah Di Di ;) )

 

 
       

ONE UTAMA DAY

Went to One UTAMA yesterday with Fy Fy and Grackt ( need to mention hard for the T behind ). My new friend introduced by Fy Fy.

Took ktm from Serdang to Kepong.I felt great , I always love the feeling of sitting in a Light Rail Train , thinking. It really calms me down and I feel comfortable for doing that.If I get the chance to travel in Japan , I will certainly take the Light Rail Train as my main transportation. Imagine if you passed through the Fuji Mountain , purple Lavenders and all those colourful Flowers ~ Wah ~~ So nice ~

Usually I only took ktm to KL Central but yesterday was more than that.I passed through KL , PUTRA as well as Seremban.Seen different view and scene , those outstanding buildings makes me wanna quickly get a license and explore all these places. Love it.

When I had arrived Kepong , I waited fy fy at the Kepong KTM station.The wind blew onto my face , that feeling was indeed remarkable.I felt never than before, so nice and warm , thus I really need this after with all these shits I had been through these few days.It reminds me back about my past , but oh well , sometimes , Indulge yourself a little could be nice especially when you're in a situation where nothing could seems to help and get rid of all your problems. Just don't go clubbing , don't go smoking don't drink like me and get kissed by those stranger like me than anything could be great. ( oh and get rid of drugs and sex as well ^^ ) Clubbing , trust me it makes you worse. Your mind will get confused by those crazy musics and spotlight , then you will think negatively and at the end you will ruin yourself.But truly without that night , I never knew that I'm trapped into such a serious matter and really have to get out from it before I repeated my past again.Gosh , I can't believe I did those thing to myself.

I was destroyed by the one who I trusted and now I came to destroy myself? That's so mean.I should live a better life after being treated so unfair.I deserve this because first , I did not did anything wrong at all , why should I turn myself like shit after what that jerk had did to me ? I paid full responsibilities In our relationship and I put myself serious into this.I shouldn't felt guilty or regret cause he is the one who should felt it that way.I hope that God would change him into a better person before he ruin others life.

I should learn how to love myself more before I find the right ways to love others.

Nature is still the best. When you're standing in front of the nature.You'll feel better , it widen your mind and your thoughts about life and purpose of living.It makes you even appreciate every of your surrounding more.You will finally realize that this world is so huge and you are not the only one who is trying to fight for living.Your problems are so small, is not a big deal at all if you compare to what happen in this world.Yes there are sad moments but doesn't mean Happy moments won't come , it was like a recycle thing , after sad moments happy moments again after happy moments then sad moments again.This is what a Life should be. Just appreciate every moments that happen , Is nothing to be weak , and is never a wrong thing to cry. There's no rules that stated you can't be weak you can't be sad,you must not cry,is a looser to be like that ~ No.If there is one, fuck it for me.But always remember to be strong after you cry, cause that's the only choice you have and try not to let it delay for long because It doesn't bring you any good at all.So when you are sad , go find >> THE NATURE.They are the best medicine which cures the most. 

We finally arrived at One Utama and planned to visit ACTION KARMEN as well as ZHU ZHU cause they work there.Fy Fy thought they both work in Adidas shop so we search for them at Adidas and found ourselves standing in front of the shop like a retard.So I decided to called her

Me : Wei , Where are you now ?

Action Karmen : Working leh !

Me : Eh ? Didn't see you de ? I'm Infront of Adidas now wor ~~

Action Karmen : =.=''' I AM WORKING AT ADD-ON !!

Me :: LOL HAHA okok heheh ~~

We laughed like mad LOL

We found Add On , awww ~ they both are standing there so cute , one short one tall , so cute ! xD So match !! Muaks muaks !! LOve them ^^ They welcome us and serve us ~ So nice ~ ^^

Haha , Add on in One Utama is having a clearance right now , their clothes and dresses mostly cost around 10 to 30 something , that's so damn cheap.I need to buy those. xD
I shop like mad , and took everything which I like.Eh ~~ Support Action Karmen and Zhu Zhu mah ~ ( cheh ~ yeah meh ? )

Then Fy Fy brought me to a Japanese Shop , I shopped like mad again !! xD !! hahahah !!
Eh ~ Long time didn't shop mah ~ Now shop for fun mah ~ Happy for a while mah so sad these few days ~~ treat myself better ~ xD ( BLEK )

I really had a great time with them ^^ Especially Fy Fy's buddy Grackt , such a nice and funny guy.We three talking and chatting like mad , shop like mad as well ^^ hehe

Bosco called me ... and he told me( actually is his friend who told me first )  something which I would never believe that.How can a person just seen you for once then fall for you d ? Walao yeah , guys nowdays... so ... wah...

He told me that he had feelings for me when he first met me , but is just that I never sense and notice him cause , he's so quiet sitting over there and I could never imagine someone who doesn't speak to me at a first place will like me after then ? He told me that , is been a year he never really court other girls because he's afraid of getting hurt again.That's why he never took any actions eventhough he likes me .. and most of the reason.. I think , is because of his... =.=''' buddy Wen that kept kacau me. *VOMIT*

His friend told me about his feelings towards me while he was calling me , he never had any intention to tell me about how he feel because he knew I was being hurt lately , and wouldn't be prepare for any new relationship. He doesn'tt even dare to tell me that night because I will sure find it hard to believe.But his friend spoiled everything lor ~ So he have to admit.. about the fact that he likes me.

He did allude to me for several times that he likes me but I didn't get that ... because he knew that my mind only involves that jerk.So the only thing he can do , is to wait.. and help me.He just want an answer from me , but really... I don't know what answer should I give him... and was afraid of hurting him.. You can't expect me to accept him straight away right ? Because that's so ridiculous shit man ! ( Like what Alice's husband said , The old one goes the new one came mah ~ ) =.='' please ~ I don't wanna ruin such a nice guy life , he still has other choices for God's sake.

ME : " Erm, seriously.. I really don't wanna think about that right now.I just healed from the wound and really hope to concentrate on things which could makes me feel better , for example my studies.. And I really need time , a lots of time maybe years.. to prepare for other...

Bosco : " I know.. I know how you feel.I already being single for a year so is nothing to me at all.I can wait for your time , I will wait for you.When you totally forget about him and when you are prepared.You promise to consider my offer?
 
Me : " I... haiz.. honestly.. is not worth it to wait for me.Well , at this moment I hope you can still find others which suits you the most.Don't find those which you thinks she owns the whole package or anything good you can think of. Find someone that really suits you.. Ok ?

Bosco : " But I still have to find the one that I really like right ? I won't tell you or asked you to decide anything right now , I know.. how you feel. I just want to realize and understand more about you.. before I really tell you..what I wanted to tell..

Me : " Yeah.. well... sure.. I can't stop you anyway... and your a grown up right now you sure know what you are doing.. I just hope we can be friends for now cause you're a kind man ^^ Sure can be good friends. ^^

His friend told me that this guy was so crazy about me until he bother them for hours asking lots of question about me.They even chatted until 5am in the morning.. Gosh..well haha that's kinda cute :) And Alice told me the exact same thing as well xD LOL

" This guy quite funny , yesterday night kept annoying us until 5am , Now also the same , quite wondering that he is that passionate... "

Gosh , all these people kept asking me to accept him accept him what the =.=''' ( Not you lah alice I mean your husband and his friend )

Seriously... I really don't feel like involving in any kinds of relationships right now I don't even want to talk about it..Is not easy for me to walked out from that shits yeah know.I just hope to be calm and single right now cause being single , truly , IS STILL THE BEST !! You don't need to care about those jerk's feelings anymore because when you care for them and did everything for them you get nothing in return but instead you get something like >> Girls so Lame ah ~ Silly ah ~ Annoying ah ~ Think too much ah ~~ Not Good enough ~~

Eh ~ Please , fucking jerks you are very good meh ? What good you give me you tell me lar !! MIRROR YOURSELF PLEASE !! HELLO !!!

I don't understand guys that's the problem.I don't understand what are they thinking what are their intentions which makes me aren't mature enough to handle a relationship.And the other reason mostly is also because of me , myself who doesn't have any experience on observing people especially for guys.I am very sensitive and ain't mature on playing the right roll when it comes to  relationship matters.Always getting hurt and failed in a relationship.I doesn't even know how to protect myself from being hurt by them as well.I need to see the world more because I am one of those who are destine to be hurt and fail many times before I could found the right one.

It took me a month to finally accept the fact that He is a jerk and had never been good as I thought he were before.I even analyzed everything on a white paper to find a clue on what's happening between us are just fake stories and it finally gave me the evidence that he is cheating me,using me and fooling around with me all this while.Is just that I choose to trust him although I can sense something suspicious about him.I even tried to convinced myself to continue trusting him after all he had done to me.But not again for now, He is a super big jerk and that's a fact.Everything is fake , everything is just an acting.

Girls , if you are being treated unfair , please kick and killed those jerks besides you.You aren't born to be treated like this shitty ways.

Eh ! My Papa sayang me my Mami sayang me my Di Di sayang me my friends all support me did I give you the permission to treat me like this !? REPORT TO YOU MOM !! XD  See who are you pissing right now ok !? Esther Loh !!! I can ruin your life if I want to , I can just call your  mom and tell her everything you had did to me , you are dead ! Just pick up my phone and asked my friends for help, I bet you never wanted to step out from your house again !! I can really destroy everything about you If I want to ok ? I can even call my Ah Gua friends to rape you and kick you for prostitution !! ( You suit so well , sure can find big money )

But fortunate for you , you met someone just as kind and nice as me. ;) :P Before this, I really thought of ruining your life after what you had did to me,my friend even stand by and waited for my order.But at the end I cancel.I didn't want to waste my time for you because you know why ? I pity those who love you and care for you , IS BECAUSE I DOESN'T WANT TO HURT THOSE WHO LOVE YOU AND CARE FOR YOU !! LISTEN CAREFULLY IS THOSE WHO LOVE YOU AND CARE FOR YOU !! APPRECIATE THEM PLEASE !! So next time , please be careful about who you are gonna to piss !! Because of your reckless fucking attitude could cause them shits you Soh Hai Ego Self Center and Ungrateful Son !! Still call yourself mature ? LAN LAH YOU !! You don't even had any inner beauty , what makes you deserve to own someone better ? You never knew what's your ex girlfriend background is ( Ewww... Mentioning about Ex girlfriend ? I felt like vomit.. I am not his ex girlfriend , NEVER !! ) I bet he sure find another leng lui to cheat right now ~ Good luck for that girl I hope she's smart enough though.

We had seen a very cute purple colour bear which is Fy Fy's and Lala favourite. But when we both saw the name for the bear >> Thomas

Fy's face turned into black , and I felt very DULAN *PUKE* Why on earth your name is everywhere yeah ? Did you know that bear is Fy's and La's favourite ? And is really hard to find a purple colour bear ? Your name yeng sui such a cute bear lor ~ Fy fy even walked away after she saw that bear's name , haiz...

Man , you are just bringing shits to this world.Nothing more.